Hello you beautiful people!
I’m seriously bursting with excitement to tell you about my newest endeavor that I’ve been working towards since July 2021. Changing my mindset, questioning everything about myself and who I am, what I want out of life, dropping old habits to bring in new ones, eating healthier, really taking care of my physical self and exercise. I’ve been doing an entire clean reset mentally, physically and spiritually to begin to align with my true self. Now, honestly… this has been hell. What I’ve been working towards doing wasn’t’ something I’d ever considered before but, I was being drawn to it… pulled quite frankly. A loud voice nagging me and planting ideas in my head that kept me coming back to the same conclusion on which page I wanted to turn to when I was feeling overwhelmingly lost in life for too long.
My decision wasn’t going to be instant relief, I was going to have to work tooth and nail if I wanted to get to a place of accepting my true self, my reality and my true desires. I’ve been doing the work, some days not even remotely excited about it as others but, this is all new territory and getting uncomfortable in life is when the monumental moments and change happens. I was so fucking nervous to do this & I was quite frankly avoiding it while also trying to prepare myself for the couple weeks before I actually gained the courage. But here I am writing this hoping to share my experiences on this journey with all of you so let’s get to the juicy part! I went into my local Strip Club & asked for job!!
Now, I’m going to give you some backstory and explain it in more depth so you can feel like you were right there! It was Friday December 17th, I had put off going to the strip club for a couple weeks prior and had this urge in my body that today was the day that I had to do it. I’ve been so nervous to do this and then this particular day i’m feeling more confident in myself, like a feeling of being grounded and guided but knowing you’re in the right place and everything is happening exactly as it was supposed to?? It was so surreal, I could barely even believe i stepped foot into my local strip club to ask for a job. It was around 6pm when my wife and I headed out the door to run an errand, grab some food, stop by the strip club and then go pick up the kids from my mom.
As we were getting food I was starting to sweat, starting to overthink and had a tiny little voice telling myself I don’t want to do this. But a part of me knew I have no choice but to do this, I’ve been planning this for months. We parked in the extra parking lot to the joint and I fixed myself up, made sure I looked okay at least 10 times I swear. I was so damn nervous but so fucking calm at the same time it wasn’t even funny. It was like I was in my body doing these things but also not in my body at the same damn time. I walk up the sidewalk, it is a cold night and I’m wearing a red crop top, with black leggings, a whitewash jean jacket and 3 1/2-inch heels.
I walk into the door go down the hallway and it opens up to a T stage with one girl to the left and a few guys at the bar. I walked up to an older man and asked where the restroom was because I was not feeling very confident at this point. I go to the bathroom look my ass in the mirror and say to myself; You got this. This may not be what you feel like you exactly want right now but this is where you are meant to be. You can feel it in your being, in your entire body the insane amount of calmness underneath the fear. You get out there and ask for a damn job that you will be insanely fucking amazing at. So, I rolled my shoulders back, fixed my hair, smacked my lips and walked my ass out back onto the floor to do what I came to do.
I walk up to the bar right next to two exotic dancers and ask the bartender if there is someone I can talk to about employment. He says yes what’s your name etc. and brings an older shorter gentleman who came up to me asked my name, what position I was interested and asked that I come back around 8:00pm. I go back at 8:00pm and both managers bring me to the back office to talk about why I want the job and when I’m looking to start etc. He recommended I start on amateur night to win some money, or I can audition after he calls me early January once their new contracts come out and new management is in the building. (Coincidence, right?) I wasn’t the happiest I had to come back but it was worth it as I was able to see more customers in there in action and I also felt even more confident since I had already been in there originally. Might I also add that the managers seriously both had the look of amazement in their eyes like a present was just randomly dropped in their lap. LOL
Anyways, I also asked about resources for shoes etc. and he said he would point me in the right direction, but I might indulge into that stuff ahead of time since I do have a pole installed at home to practice. I anticipated the shit out of this, and it was over within a blink it felt like. So, now I wait until I receive a phone call or decide to do amateur night but either way, I took the leap I needed to do to get my path rolling in the right direction. You may not resonate and hold different opinions on this line of work & that is completely okay. This is the path I’ve come to spiritually, mentally and emotionally and know this is what I am meant to be doing. My life has been nothing but curveballs & I’m actually fucking excited to start this journey guys! Can’t wait to let you know how this goes & for you to follow me on this new endeavor!
Thank you all, until we talk again ❤